Is it just me?

I consider myself a decent person.  I am not perfect and I admit that since there is no such thing as the perfect person.  Yet sometimes I feel I am judged and it really gets me down.  If I am too quiet I am a snob.  If I am too talkative I am annoying.  How do you find that perfect medium that allows you to be you but yet liked by those around you.

Some times I just feel like those around me don't like me.  It really bothers me.  It may seem like I am keeping to myself but I am just doing the things that I need to and some times that keeps me away from others.  There are some activites that I physically cannot do no matter how much I really want to.  Maybe I am reading into things and maybe I am just jealous.

Settling In

So we have been here for 2 months and I think we are finally settling in and getting into a routine.  Gavin loves his Family Child Care (FCC) Provider.  Brett is doing well in his job and I am hanging in there.  I am keeping myself busy with working, monitoring my sites for The Mommies Network, and counting the days until we move back to North Carolina.

Don't get me wrong.  I like it here.  It is peaceful and we are seeing alot of things I would never see on the east coast but I miss my friends.  I have no one to scrapbook with.  I am the almost the only spouse on my street who work - everyone else is a SAHM.  I would go nuts if I had to stay at home with Gavin every day.

I am hoping it gets better with time and I find some friends here.  Right now, all I have are acquaintances.  Maybe I need to try harder.  I don't know.  We will see.

Adjusting

We are finally in Fort Irwin, CA and trying to adjust to life here in the desert.  We have met some great people so far.  Gavin likes his daycare provider and Brett is liking work (so far).  I, on the other hand, am annoyed with my co-workers and would so look for another job if I wasn't in the middle of no where.

We have lots of things planned in the next couple of months.  Vegas, Phoenix, LA, San Diego, and a few other places.  Can't wait!!!!

I am fine with one

They tell you when you are ready you will know.  You will get an desire to have another.  I don't have that desire.  As my husband pointed out, I didn't have that desire the first time.  Of course I wouldn't change a thing now but do I really want to do it all again....

What is the big deal if you have one, two, three or twenty? 

Will This Day End

So the day started with G waking up with a fever AGAIN!  We decided that maybe we should go ahead and take him to the doctor since I was going to have to miss another day of work.

Turns out he has an ear infection and possible strep throat.  Antibiotics to the rescue!  We really try not to put him on those but sometimes there is no alternative. We got his prescription and a note so he can go back to school tomorrow (thank goodness!)

Next on the list, my turn to go to the doctor.  While in line for prescriptions, I got a call that Pain Management could see me for my back pain.  We went to the office in DC and instead of getting facet injections I got both facet injections and an epidural.  Will never do that again.  I am so stiff and sore that I can barely walk.

Of course, this is really bad timing.  The movers come on Monday.  I still need to organize what we are taking with us, throw out the garbage and make sure this place is clean for the lady who bought it from us.  Not sure how I will get this done with a 22 month old and a bad back.

Just the Beginning

I haven't done this is such a long time.  I am hoping that I can get into this again once we move to CA and I have nothing to do but take care of Gavin, my work with The Mommies Network, and study for my CFP.

Be patient with me.  I am not a writer.  I just have a lot of stuff in my head.